Time is immortal and precious ….its been a part of my life and I know things have happened in the right time for a reason ….its this reason I can’t understand that makes me a fighting slave to destiny .I try to forget and let go but that’s impossible , yet why do I pretend , what makes me pretend I think I found no other choice . Well it is never really a dream life this life of a princess …because I don’t live in heaven but people think I do ,
They think of a princess in a commanding stance , a previledge but its just a unchangeable destiny and no one can understand this ….I suppose Samuels did , George did but not my John ….yes he never does or does not want to .
I shall narrate my story for celebrity journalist Edward Samuels says he cannot narrate the princess story that of my great , great , great grand mother princess Illena .
He has disappointed and failed me or maybe I have ….barriers were removed between us ,barriers of distance , of strangeness , of mystery , of society class ….and mutual understanding bloomed , a liking , a attraction , a innocent everlasting one , but all I want from Samuels is d completed story of Illena .
I told Samuels to give me back the diary I gave to him , the final personal diary of Illena if he won’t complete the series but he would not listen and would not write .
Like men he wanted only what he wanted , he was in love with Illena and wanted to drench himself in dreams of her ….he has nothing to do with me ….I don’t know maybe I will have no more of Samuels in my personal life , because he won’t give me the story I feel he should end …..
He was my special friend having innocent charms that made me so peaceful , so secure …but …but ….maybe I am cursed so full not to have my real toys .
Well princess Mia had given me the diary of princess Illena and I never found the time to be immersed in it ….when I did I saw the real drawing and face of Edward Hikins , he looked so noble , so innocently cunning and pure and I knew he has got to be the man for princess Illena ….I looked at him and saw in time that Illena had her smiles staring at him , her tears staring at him , he never died in her spirit she never will let him .
It was timeless , clear so pure the image Illena had drawn with her own hands on paper …, thou I am sure its got to be imperfect .I saw Illena lost in this process provably only thing that kept her from going mad for the after days after Hinkins had died .
Her tears and smiles were silent ….her mind inching to create the portrait of Hinkins that very few would know for he was just a common man . She wanted to run away from her kingdom but she could not ….she wanted to tell anybody she could about Hinkins , but she had only her diary ….
I thought of Mia and her engrossed mind staring at Hinkins , lost in the diary of Illena …and then I felt a pang of insanity I cannot explain ….after that I could never read the diary further , it was like a ghost that played surreal games with me .Mia and Illena …, no Illena cannot go mad , she just cannot ….
I thought of loving sweet Mia , this was her gift for me , yes this picture of Edward Hinkins , these ….these ….I felt I could not do the series thou was touched with the faith Mia has on me ….I don’t know that was when Mia asked me about the story I promised to complete .
“Mia , I can’nt stand princess Illena go mad “
“she recovered soon enough “ , Mia said encouragingly ,
“its black history Mia , Illena wanted to die with a blame of having a affair with Hinkins ,
she never did “
I knew Mia shuk her head , “how do you know that “.
It made me get angry “ Mia I can’t write such a thing that ever goes against her character I am sorry “.
“Samuels , it does not it was her desire can’t you see ? , she was provably far ahead of her times , she only wished for it which she revealed in the diaries “.
I kept quite for a long time ….”Mia , I know this means a lot to you , but I can’t make such endings , you seem to believe ….”
“it’s the truth , she killed herself in madness after her first child …twins they were a boy and a girl ….she made claims of infidelity ….’.
I got such rage in my nerves that I called Mia mad and cheap . She had made a mistake by giving me Illena’s diary .That was it , I threw away the diary kept the phone down .
I am sure princess Illena wrote lies in her diary ….Mia knew it does she not ? .
Illena would never be so selfish not keeping her promise of dieing Hinkins , of keeping her duty to her kingdom , to her country , her destiny ….she lived growing her children into wonderful people , she lived keeping her husband happy …….
Its painful at this point to write any further ….and now losing Mia I would go mad in this phase of life I am in because of her story , my life would all be a illusion ! .
Like the fall of glory and wealth ……and why I shall want to cease being Edward Samuels who wrote the princess story .
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ekta ,
yea wit urs and e_w's comments i c dose scarred stuff dat amazes ever1 like u ...
itz dose minute atoms and quaks dat mks it up so u guys woud alwz alwz like wat i write coz dis 1 is a series story to the princess series and only people who woud follow it wl get d picture ...well thx do read my a-bunny-rabbit-story.htm
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hiyaa Priya,
again some pieces, some meotions, some here n there kept n forgotten things...emotions at their best...past n present all one n go...heck! y m so much amazed with wot u write...
u drag me...u drag me to somewhere else...like someone else also does me with her stories...
Love,
Ekta
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e_w ,
u hv pieces of stuf disected ....s even if my stories r anyting hv no form dere is strong emotions and everyting just hanging in dere ......dis 1 i tink i woud not reccommend coz yea itz a continuation of a series and somewer i had lost it ....but s i am hppy u saw dose emotions and even in my comments itz d way i feel across time ......d story does evoke someting strong in me d way i feel den picture ....u write lovely fairytails u kn and dats 1 more reason u like my stuf ....itz like invisible magic ......
maybe i found dis part silly dis story ....i felt dat fellow is stuck in time @ past but deres definitely someting more ....and wat u say strangely 4 dis series makes perfect sense becoz perhapes charactors here do feel and evoke de javu's of past charactors .....
but s life goes on ....so d charactors wl come back 2 deir current life ....but dats only if u follow dis series ....u should read a story of princess my first few editions u would love it .....it has all elements of wat u said but lotz of dose charms of mine dat wont fail 2 amaze u (:.....
u kn i am very hppy u read my bunny rabs story ......but dis seemed 2 hv evoked thoughts in u however ....thx e_w ur perspectives and explanations r just delightful ....very honest 4 1 ting .....
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Priya, such a long time since I read anything written by u...such a long time....yet it desnt feel so...
There is pain, there is passion, there is so much emotion, all left unexplained, unrequitted, unaccepted, ahead of times, yet always happening within time....I rem Kamahassan's interview....he says people may not accept now, yet later they will kno, there is nothing to be so stauncly opposing abt anything...its just that some people are ahead of time....we know that right...some people are ahead of time, some people travel across time and space..some people live in the past, I dont mean immediate past of a singular life, I mean as in past lives....somewhere I may be aware that I am the same Radha incarnate who once gave all to her beloved Krishna.....n this life I am seaching for that Krishna.....something...whatever....I know I am not coherant...but with u....there is no need of coherance....the warps and wefts of time, bind the understandings....
its a pleasure reading u....when I think I have touched what u meant :)
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